Always active, even as a adult, I was felled by illness that, over time, dramatically changed my life. The initial illness grew in numbers and severity as I scrambled to cope and make sense of it all. These health issues didn’t have the decency to leave, even after a long, extended visit. I have struggled many times, and still do, but over time, I have managed to find some quality of life for myself, obviously of importance for everyone. I have promised myself that I would strive to embrace the positives while eschewing the toxic influences in my world. In many, many ways, I am luckier than most.
I have what it takes to capture the reader’s interest. At this point in time, with my husband away, my thoughts tend to veer towards the broader meaning of life.
There is so much to see and do as life goes on around us. Even in my worst moments, I am reassured by the seasons changing, people laughing, children playing, and the beauty around me. At the same time, I often feel as if I’m on the outside looking in, as I often surround myself within my safe walls, only risking trips outside for medical appointments and the odd social occasion or errand.
In spite of having many chronic illnesses and much pain, there is so much more to life in a broader sense, squarely putting my health into perspective in comparison to the wide world of wonder just outside my door.
It is important for me to force myself outside of my comfort zone in order to experience life completely. That is my current goal as I recover from a long stretch of ill health and a great deal of pain. Now that it is more-or-less manageable, I need to risk more pain and exhaustion by getting out and doing, rather than just being. There is a gorgeous world to explore with so much to offer, and I want to be part of it.